My life as a redeemed people pleaser

At a young age I remember doing almost anything to make someone smile or laugh. I would dance on tables or try to impersonate someone just for a laugh out of a group. Living at a camp & being the youngest, I never wanted to get lost in the mix. & the most daunting fear, be forgotten. I wasn't even comfortable with myself alone for a long time. Always having to have music playing or something to occupy my mind. Weird right? In a lot of ways thats what shaped me to be the loud & energetic person that I am today. I'm sure that I've written about how these last several months have really changed my life completely. But they definitely changed my heart & even my personality as well. By learning one simple line from... web, the Avett Brothers, "I keep telling myself that it'll be fine, you can't make everybody happy all of the time."

Finally realizing that, I stopped trying to. I know I can't male my family, my friends, my following & my God happy. CONSTANTLY. I never even knew it. I only really want to bring joy & glory to One. Of course even then, I fail more often than not. The most co forting thing is when my mood or personality adapts to more quiet an introverted Lib (hard to believe eh?), I am NEVER forgotten. I can finally sit comfortably in a secluded spot & rest in His presence. Knowing that whatever happens I am being held, watched, & poured into by the One who redeems us fickle people.

One last thought, I didn't even have to be born for Jesus Christ to die on a cross for me. He finds pleasure in me when I'm not even speaking or doing anything. Will you rest in the arms of our Poppa God with me today (Psalm 131:2)?